My list of realizations and problems that add to my not being happy:
no.1) We won't have any money what-so-ever if Lalie isn't in our guardianship. Then if that happens it is back to grandmother's house.
no.2) I don't have any friends. None. I have a few but they are busy and don't take the time to hang out with me. I have literally NO social life at all.
no.3) I don't have a computer or laptop. No way to get on the internet besides when I'm at Tyler's.
no.4) Tyler is going to be gone all this weekend. He is leaving early tomorrow morning. I'm going to be alone. Alone doesn't go over well with me. I will go through withdrawl of social company and will become even more depressed. I guess it's sleeping in for my agenda the next 3 days.
I'm really not at all happy.